So lately I have been obsessed with the app Words With Friends. For those of you who aren’t familiar with it, it's basically scrabble, and you can play against friends or random opponents.
I. Am. Terrible.
Everyone seems to beat me: my mum, my friends, even randoms. And they all ask, ‘aren’t you a writer?’ or 'aren't you meant to be good with words?'
Yes. Yes I am meant to be good with words.
As a writer, I find it strange that words often seem to fail me.
I was recently in a position where I had to express how I felt about a particular situation, and all I could manage to say was 'I just... I just feel... I feel... uncomfortable and I don't need to explain why!'
And again, that was followed by, 'but aren't you a writer? You should be able to express how you feel.'
I often struggle talking. I use basic language, I say things wrong (I can't tell you how often I say 'me and Ash' and my dad says 'you mean, Ash and I'.) Sometimes I feel like my entire adult vocabulary escapes me when I need it to verbalise things, but then when I write (most of the time), it all comes back.
Other times it's there. Just a few weeks ago I was having a slight argument with my boyfriend and during on my girly-emotional-rant, I remember throwing in some similes and metaphors, and after thinking 'wow, those were awesome' and I wrote them down. (can't help but laugh at myself).
And the worst is when I babysit, and the kids ask me 'what does this word mean' and I stand there like 'ummmm, it's when.... ahhh'. Even words I know, half the time I struggle to explain them.
Have words ever failed you? Where?